Twilight Of My Youth Part 2 - The Road And The Fiery Heart

I watched, as the years passed me by
How I'm still in search, in here and in there
Of the purpose of my birth, my solid existence
And my role of this lifetime that often eluded me

But a conversation with someone from my past awakened me
Telling me that I was more than I could have ever been
And that I still am inside, that I could still be forever
And that God has given me these not to be so ever wasted!

So here before a raging bonfire of the spirit, I sighed
Not at all at its majesty or luminous sheen
But at the sky that framed it in the background
The darkened void in the wake of the twilight

The twilight of my youth...

Yes, the twilight that I once mourned
Till the moon turned red and my heart turned black
And mourned it all with my losses both real and fantasized
Till came a time I've forgotten that these aren't the only things I could do!

Yes, I sighed not at all in contempt, or to mock its God-given existence
But rather, I'm mocking and pitying myself all at once, my poor twisted self
For I suddenly realized that I've awoken up from a very dreamless sleep
A sleep of damning proportions that had gripped at my youth, my golden youth

And how I wished that I should have awakened now much more earlier than this!

But now, long after I've said my dark goodbyes to my darkened days called the past
I now realized, where all my roads do lead me from now, from here
From this even darker junction that I once so horribly scared to tread or face!
To move on, to move my dimmed heart and hopes within towards the ever-cherished light

And what is much more important now is, is that I now know which road is best to take
Which road would lead me back to the golden light, far beyond the vermillion sunset
The roar of the roads less travelled that I once recalled I took it in in such sheer hastiness
But now I did know, that this truly is the right road that I've rightfully taken!

So now now longer will I be
The Silent Traveller of Many Sad Stories
But rather, the jovial wise man of many a story
On his quest to tell it all, from here and now until forever...

And for I have chosen this path, and this bonfire it lit
So glorious so bright till death would I part
And to this I kiss with love and with passion
For the writer has now has will to live!

Thank You God, for everything...

SAIFUL NIZAM SHUKOR
KL
2010

Dances Of The Heart Part 2: A Different Beat?

I knew deep inside this would happen someday
The pain has been lifted and chucked me to the world
Knowing too true that I'm no longer so young
And of what have I been doing, or whose face did I stare?

Truly I'm now be filled with fresh new feelings
Of the kind that abounds when life hits your teens
But now in my thirties should these feel so weird?
Or maybe that spring is within me now it blooms?

Alas, so I now admit that its sighing so gently
When should I pass by sweet lovers so young
When then came so soon the two-piece and babe
Like God is a-mocking, it should have been you!

Oh well, so now I await the calling from afar
Of the one who will open the doors to my kingdoms
And should she be here, then please sing my soul!
For I've been a-hollowed through time and my self...

Though now I still walk in paths much too dark
And the sun always sets too soon and too coldly
I will now yearn the sweet scented smiles
Of the one who will bring me, back to the light

God oh help me...

SAIF MINTAKA
KL
2010

My World Now Take Flight!

Now in this night I speak once again
Through streaking sighs and streaming lights
So parched and so cosy in my drab white apartment
Within so contained but the light's still not right

And as I sit still my mind now it wanders
Through flying through grace and rising post-haste
To land where the dragons still greets the wet morning
Then frolic in the plains of golden lit mountains

And through the serpentine glitter the river I sailed
That flowed so deep into the forest of magic
Where elves make songs and the unicorns they dance
And fairies a-smiling they'll greet you on wings

Its nice when you know of the things you made sweet
Now dances around you in praise and in merriment
So close now it seems my fingers and the sun
And with praises Almighty I've touched the sky

Ah, someday all these I'll write them all down
Sweet poundings of lead on the snow white plains
Not for the money, the fame or the game
Merely as footnotes of my childhood days

Until that time comes my day and my night
Apart will they be from now til the future
When at last all my muse they'd coax me to ride
And with one last sigh my world now take flight!

THE SIGN OF SHAIRO
KL
2010

The Keys To All Kingdoms

Don't hide it, for I know you want it too
This last lost smile in the fading of the daylight sun
Scorching in the desert of everyone's heart
And travellers we are out of waters of the folly...

For indeed we are never so well or so near
But if you are of me then you know where the light is
For I am darkness in and out, with a thirst to be free
Dying deep inside to be held by the foliage

So let's not a flower or a wall to come between us now
For this mist is a farce like this life is a lie
But within I did crave, this long and winding daydream
Of the one and the only with the keys to all kingdoms

So pray that we'll lift this veil once for all
For my time has come to walk not alone
And neither will I leave without a kiss or a smile
From the one who is lost but no more losing...

SAIF MINTAKA
KL
2010

At The Crossroad of Vermilion Sunrise

Another morning begins again
As I silently trudges the half empty street of this small little town
The cool morning air keeps reminding me that yesterday was just hours ago
As cool and yet calm despite the motornoises of the day

Maybe it is fated by God that this is where I end my journey as the silent traveler
As this small little town finally caught up with me
Rendering the sky slowly from red to yellow and finally to blue
Reminding me constantly of my memories that I have wrought so well from the start
Of it many layers of dusk, of the darkest of midnight and of the slightly of morning
An of the many more layers of the sacred heartfarer's way that this life will sing for me...

And for once I'm feeling that I'm no longer afraid of letting go of my youth now
And of my past that's checkered with light and darkness at every turn at best
And wrought with so many fears and hope both false and so true at worst
For it is now over and done with under the unfurling of the white sweet sail
On the moment of this blessed day

As I sail away into the sun without fear
Without shame and without guilt

So although this street and this road may never recall me again after I've passed them by
And the life of these places may placidly again resume its course for another millennium or two
But from what I can see as I glance at the sky, far beyond all dreams and reveries
Another paved lit road lies open before me - the road of gold and lit with silver

Telling me that all that I've ever lived for all these while
And all that I've ever hoped for to come true
Arrived they have for me at last
For here and to stay and from now 'til forever...

(Thank you God, for everything!)

SAIF MINTAKA, THE SIGN OF SHAIRO
MUAR, KL
1976 - 2010

Ethereal Chant for Cosmic Intervention

Araste kane pisti rostruwa tana piuh
Pistu nika piyeka rostruwa tina piuh

(Chant until one feels at peace with the universe, while keeping in mind that their help will never come in ways we would expect it. Be positive and open-minded. Their help will almost always be beautiful...)

Hymns of A Dragon Lancer Part 2

The Faceless Enemy Intro

So true is the greatness of strife
Of bloodied intentions of morbid proportions
In fires so dire I spared my vast sight
Of wronged old sane ties in the past full of lies

Indifferent I saw these fools in this time
As they pounced and they squabbled each other till death
Oh sorrow, oh gay, I cried these black tears
For conclusions are easy yet they oh cared not!

So now no prayers shall flay on their deception
For the time is so ripe for the grey mist to fall
And to herald the rise of the damned vermilion plague
As stones they rise in place of all raindrops!

I sing the glee this dark heart of the sky
For the King now he moves in stealth and in pride
In grief and in mirth I shower you with pain
So now let the game of destruction begins!