To The Fields Of Dust I Shall Roam Again

So much in sheets of glass and wisps of smoke that I've foreseen the languishing stroke
Of another blood fire inasmuch as a whimper to the end of a lusting and indeed it was so strong
But for now in a while there would be no more of this past of the pain that's buried, mourned and forsaken
To another beyond till demise is the veil that it drops oh so gracefully above our heads, like a tiara for the dead

And now its time for me to propose another warm toast
For another doubt fire frost covered and wilted, too grim to bear
That no matter how much gushings of blood would I slake this thirst to clean away
For a vengeance unknown but never unauthorised, to this me I did hold this sharp sword much so high

But till which dark consequence will I get to unlatch these red malice off me heart?
For I have no qualms about silence and its gilded worth, for much or for less than it is
So am I still blessed when that time did come, or would it be damned as to never did come?
Then how so may I be made in peace and concord once again, if this fire be unstoked?

Oh how so indeed I'm in confusion as if a spider is stuck in its own web of feeding
Or maybe there is a demon that still feeds on me as I scour the earth like a mindless fool
So could I be so grateful to you, O Great God, if still I did not know who is the enemy who is the friend?
Or could it be that all these be they merely plays of the universe that none had ever understood, or none may ever will...


SAIF MINTAKA
KL
2012

For All The Love I Have In Me...

So may this be the me that had lost his will or trust in the light, in my journey to whoever that longs for me still
In both the darkness and light we shall forever seek to embrace each other though far or wide we seem to be
But for me to touch the skin so golden in the warmth of the afternoon rain then maybe this is the heaven that I never knew existed
For all the power of God and the Love that He'd give us still, and this is such a lonely boy deep within me who yearns for another smile

So shine now the light so I can follow you through the thick of the night, for the forest of silence and the valley of the void I have traversed alone
And alone I would wish for no one to suffer from it like the way that I still do, and for this I bequeathe another frost covered goblet filled with mead for the thirsty one in me
So that may it be that we could be together before the deathly fires of the sky they'd light up my days with pain and torment, to wither and die for one more day
To me in this journey for all the wealth and prizes of life that may or may not be offered to me, how weary I am now to tread it alone!

And now on the eve of the death of a child and the birth of all reason, will there be the one who would consecrate this lifeless body for the greens and the posy filled meadow?
Or maybe this silenced minstrel be a-finding himself so sighing loudly to himself again? For all the love I have in me to the one who could lead me away from this funeral
And into the veils of gold of yet another beautiful day that I've since given up on, or so it may seem to be right now, (forsooth I knew nothing of my heart yet my feelings fueled me for long!)
Towards what ends indeed for this ageing little boy on the journey towards damnation of being the one with only his memory as his company, with a dream of a kiss to set me for free...

SAIF MINTAKA
KL
2012